And to the healing fighter,

I know you’ve been running for so long, and that you’re tired. But that’s okay now you can rest in the arms of the man that loves you enough that he gave his life for you and raised the standard and continued to come back and pursue you and care for you even in resurrection. There is love that pardons all wrong ,that sees beyond your faults and into who you could potentially be.

I’ll tell you about the a love I speak of ,the one that is patient so you don’t have to pretend to be perfect, but however long it takes for you to rise to the godly standard ….it is patient. This very love is not easily angered easily, It doesn’t just only pardon of wrong, it keeps no record too, the love that won’t throw triggers at you and rejoice when your healing scars start to bleed, the very love that never gives up hope in you, never quits…..i know that many could have said before that they’ll never give up on you but as soon as things went too cold they left to get a coat and never returned, I understand what that did to your perspective on trusting and being vulnerable before humanity because one too many times you’ve been left out in the open and the people you thought you could rely on to help carry you are the very people that cut your wounds further open whether or not they knew it, but I come bearing love and bearing the very heart of God for you as far as your healing is concerned.

I need you to know that until you understand even just partially the extent to which you have been wounded you will not start to heal ,let alone see the need for it. It’s been rough yes but survival mode for the rest of your life?? That isn’t even close to what god desires for you at all. As a child you could have been sexually abused, neglected emotionally, brutally handled by people you believed you were supposed to be protected by, you might have been verbally abused and downcast by those that were supposed to spell your name according to the word of God and you’ve been so gone, overwhelmed by so much pain continuously succumbing to the temptation to dwell in that place. But you know? God is ready to carry you through your personalized healing journey, all that’s needed? Show up for it, make yourself available.

In the next letter I’m ready to process certain things with you and offer direction the best way I can….the father loves you
With love
-Kana Lusuba-